So Dramatic

I can’t believe it’s over ,I watched the whole thing fall. And I lost my beloved one.

someone who I like as the special one and the greatest rush of all was to be found,  always accompany me in all times, sharing my happiness or even the heaviness that I have, someone who always care about me, spending our time together, doing a lot of silly things and smiling out together gone away suddenly.

Things have seem to changed and there’s one thing that’s still the same. But should its you? Why it should you?

You become someone else. Yeah someone else. Take a protagonist act to be an enormous actor in the camouflage world.
you’re so changed, so far away, so rough, let me hurting and crying but you don’t care bout that roundly, so dramatic. How pitiful I am, ain’t i?

By the same reason for doing that to me, you made distances to round off us. Why you so self?
you just think bout him, but no including me. What the best for me? You don’t know dear, im the only one who knows it. But you don’t to know. You more than him, you more than the other friends. but you never want to take it as the truth. If you don’t see it, feel it

is there an act for defending me? No, you let me go. You brooding me to go out from your side obviously, so dreadful way for that

I tried to turn back my mine. My mine as same as before.  Just trying to getting you back, Until i push myself, how will i know how far i can go? It is only by testing my limits that i can determine where you truly are. Of course, hoping the next time, i can try to exceed those limits. No matter what you're going through, i'll never walk away,  i'll never walk out on you. I’m officially missin’ you and I tell you. But the words became useless on you      What can I say?  Youre be precis  the new you without see back to me. You breaking down what ive done.

All I do is lay around, sometimes two eyes full of tears from looking at your face on. Just two months ago you were my ap. Now I don’t even know you at all. To the sweet things you told me, I just can’t find a way to let go of you

Did you know the definition bout friendship? Never let them go, keep warm to each other, but you didn’t dear. You draw me in, but you kicked me out now.  You made me sad, always. You made me disappointed. Everything that I said just became a joke moreover trash. You made meaningless of me for whole times, youre a fabulous actor indeed.

Theres no my guardian anymore. Everything and every promises seem hide away slowly.

“yes you’re right  everythings gonna be okay if we still together but im too scare if you not stay with me. I don’t hate you close to someone, I just cant strong enough to losing you. I cant losing you dear”
Still remember that words? But now you can write like this “I can losing you dear”. that’s more suitable for me right? …

I thought I just brooding him to do and become what I want. Yeah, the basic of this friendship just like that as he thought

Stop fooling yourself. He wont to be with you anymore.
take the time to realize, realize he left you behind ekaaa
why so difficult to accept it as the real

Its enough, its enough to hurting me

Thanks for do it,

Hopely you will happy as you want for those

Sincerely

eka