so fast

Today is the third week since he passed away.

My deepest sorrow was fade away even haven't get normally yet but Alhamdulillah. Those not easy as i thought to recovery everything. Yeah i just lost all of my life senses, i was stressed out, its like the worlds crashing down and dont know how to do.

How do i get through my life without u? what can life would that be?
It’s just not fair brings more trouble than it all is worth and life preasures me down, i always thought it at first but i know that was Rencana Allah  :').
Allah knows what the best destiny or way for us, believe it,,

Actually so hard to come back at first cause his presence still lingers here and it haunts me more over, dont mind i love with it instead so i can remember  how beautiful  life is when we're being a complete family.

Theres a lot things bout him. And his sketchy.........

He is the second son, playing football become his hobby (i knew it from his close friend hem), he always use glasses as same as me and watch on left hand side. Qanita always called him with "uak kumis" nick wkwk, cause he has dense mustache. he loves noodle so much, when he being in home ordered noodle to me or mom became his tradition which has to done. He has dark brown skin, even he passed up to 50 years old but he still strong enough and more handsome.


He always taught bout truly life meaning, sorry dad if i didnt hear ur advices seriously but definitely i got it.
He is wise, simple person and having great personality.
i was regret cause ive not longer time to know well who he is, yeah its so hard to tell bout our situation and condition matters which made distance for everything. Although our intensity not too much to have meeting but im very grateful that ive became part of his life and so was me.

i will miss his kindness, his mustache :p, his calling which ask my news or just ask me to keep my eat rule , studying and dont late to sleep at night.

people on my surrounding especially all of beloved friends always keep taking care and be there for me too. they tried to cheer me up, took my pain and burried em away... so helped. Their support made this faith to continuing the way come on top again.
 U need the others to heal heaviness inside urs. Thanks all :*

Rise up and take the power back, it's time that. Putting my defenses up and keep running thats should be do.

Somehow I have to find and as I try to make my way to the ordinary world I will learn to survive.

i just want our dream come true in the end as what u want it too and becoming ur proud daughter.

Even u're far away now, but i know u are shining on me from heaven to keeps me alive :)