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My feeling was different recently. Theres busy nowhere, made me thought about everything even just something which didnt understand to think. Sometimes i felt alone with places that look the same and im the only difference, just me, myself, and i. umm i think ive got fickle heart syndrom -_- .  Thought bout past or everything that bothering my mind impacted feel flat now, and confused to determines the future thats activities when weird situation coming up. This matter goes around in my head.

Normally could not sleep and to filled that usually listen to music became fine way out or brood myself to sleep hehe. So sad indeed and like theres hole part in my heart that exploded at the time. How it getting more complicated? this eyes to tears while facing this matter sometimes, for a minute there i lose my sense and get stuck in the middle . Well it was me with a sensitivity that I have as an ordinary girl.

it is also used to bring myself prefer caves, old habits and regular action right?  yapp, doesnt mean you lonely when ure alone i personally believe it. Alone its needed as a powerful way for self introspection and to stabilize ur troubled heart. But when u feel so all alone, telling someone who'll listen can reduce ur heaviness too and made u feel relieved, as same as i feel in that way.

And always, so tired actually have sensitivities like this, I tried to ignore it like the others, but im not as that kind person. i cant run for myself and theres nowhere to hide.

Life must go on, there is no easy things happen in life. there will be such a matter to make me grow up and be more mature.